Soulmate Journey

I believe that we are reborn and that we have lived many lives on earth. I also think we've been with a lot of the same people in previous lives. Which could be a good thing or a terrible nightmare, let alone some brutal karmic lessons. My soul-mate journey had nothing to do with anyone but myself. The divine masculine (your body) and the divine feminine (your soul) realize that both are you. That's why it was difficult for me because I was concentrating on the outside world instead of looking inside myself. I've lived the greater part of my life in my male energy, which is why I was a whore and couldn't satisfy my body, and why I spent so many years chasing women. Your masculine and feminine have to be equal in balance between body and soul. Healing and loving myself is when I realized I'm my soul mate.

The person I've been looking for since day one was me! Not my character, but the actual essence of my soul, my being. When I made the conscious decision to embody the consciousness of the Creator and to line up with my higher self and my source. This is when a light bulb turned on and I realized my true nature. So, in search of my soul mate, my body and soul reconnect and align with my higher purpose on this earth. I believe in duality, I love my darkness as much as I love my enlightenment. Religion has forced us to choose one or the other, one is evil and the other is good, but that's another story for another day. I've had toxic relationships that have shattered the foundations of my exes. So much so that she had no other option than to experience a spiritual awakening. (You are welcome) I have also talked to others in a way that has healed trauma, pain, depression, grief, self-esteem. But the point is whether it was hard or soft it brought you into a consciousness of your Soul. And those to whom I have never apologized, from the bottom of my heart, I apologize and acknowledge the evil I have done to you.

To come back to the point, I have a new love for me now that no one on earth can replace. I love myself as I am, the dark and the light, this is the enigma that is me. I don't care what other people think about me and I don't feel the need to validate myself with anyone. Whether you love me or not, my world goes on. What no one will ever see is the endless hours that I put into myself. Reading, Shadow Work, Inner Child Work, Research, Meditation, Journal and Online Coarse. Deal with the trauma of the past and heal quietly when the world thought I was okay. There are levels to healing and just when I thought I had healed some area, BAM something I thought I had healed slams my ass in the face.

This fucking journey was one of the harshest lessons of my life, but it was worth it for inner peace and knowing who I am.